Sunday, November 21, 2010

running is my boyfriend

Running is sort of my boyfriend these days. And training for a marathon akin to having an incredibly high maintenance significant other. That bitch requires so much of my time, and if I skip out on a workout or two, believe me that I pay for it later. Sometimes it's a love/hate relationship. I was almost ready to break up with running for good after the grueling 13.1 Canton race back in June. Believe me, it was a bitter fight, and the result was me promising, in between profanities, that I'd never run again. But I came back. I always come crawling back, running shoes in hand, begging for forgiveness.

There are sacrifices to be made in any relationship - and for this particular one I have given up countless weekend nights, lots of money (races are expensive!), and toenails. So. Many. Toenails. But despite being a little bit of an attention whore, running is a good boyfriend (most of the time). Running allows me to eat tons of delicious food and makes me feel proud of my strong body. Running has introduced me to some people who have become really great friends -- in and out of workout gear. Most importantly, and forgive me for sounding so trite, running has made me realize that it's okay not to be surrounded by people all the time. I'm very much a people person, but in the last few years I've really come to love the time that I spend by myself on the open road, or the race course.

Yesterday running and I had a pretty big blowout around mile 14 of my 18.1 mile run. I was feeling thirsty, tired, and really freaking cranky. Oh, and did I mention that the wind just wouldn't quit? I wanted to tell running to shove it. I was lucky that I was with Julia, because I probably would have just given up. There was a point where I actually said to myself, "If I punch myself in the face, can I stop running?" It was frustrating and upsetting to feel so exhausted. Yes, I know that 14 miles is a LONG way to run, but two weeks prior I had finished my 15.75 miler feeling GREAT. I have to keep reminding myself that not every run is going to be amazing. I am also making a conscious effort to leave yesterday's run where it belongs -- in the past. I have a whole new week of running, cross-training and turkey eatin' to look forward to.

Seven weeks down, six to go!

9 comments:

Betsy said...

I go through the same string of emotions w running!!

Dori said...

You are doing so great with your training!!! Very impressed. Really like this post.

Jamie said...

I always say running is my mistress and he sucks my toes. Because that's really the only way to explain it to my fiance. It's such a huge time suck and my body definitely feels the love/hate, but I can't stop!

Douglas Welch said...

Pushing through those not-so-much-fun runs makes you appreciate the great runs that much more...

Monica said...

Well, I'm glad you didn't punch yourself in the face. It's a pretty little face. Let's keep it that way :]

I'm not a runner (we know this, haha), but I understand giving up your "social life" for something that most people just don't...understand. But it's worth it for you, and like you said it gives you some alone time to just clear your head and do your thing.

Keep on keepin' on :]

j. said...

@betsy - i think that every runner has come pretty close with breaking up with running at one time or another

@dori - thank you! i feel as though it's really starting to get hard now, but i'm going to keep on keepin' on. can't wait to run with you on friday!

@jamie - a toe sucker? giirl, you kinky! haha

@doug - that's a really excellent point. if you only ever had great runs, you wouldn't appreciate them as much!

@monica - it's true, i am too pretty to punch myself in the face. although it might give me some street cred.. some people just don't understand it at all when i say "oh staying in tonight, running 15,16,17, 18ish miles early tomorrow!" but hey, that's why i'm training and they're not, right?

Every Little Thing said...

not many boyfriends would require toenails so you must be in love ;)

j. said...

i know, right?!

Graceful Lady said...

When the going gets tough @kissing_frogs gets going - great job pushing through. Fall and winter training really tests the mettle girlfriend but you are doing it and soon you will be in a class that only less than 2% of the population every join - a marathoner!